Drudgery

It's Saturday morning, and I am forcing myself to write something.

Maybe I'm lazy. Or maybe it's something else. Lately I've been feeling tired all the time. Having trouble even forming complete (and grammatically-correct) sentences.

Even when the others take the piss out of me in the office, and I want to respond... my mind just goes blank.
And for some insane, fucked-up reason, I give them a look of exasperation, with my palms outstretched, as if to say 'Oh hey, come on now, what did I do??'

Motherfucker.

And to think, at one point, I wanted to become a stand-up comedian.
Hell, I still do.
Yep. I'd get raped on stage, no doubt about it.
But I'd do it anyway.

So yeah, last week, I accidentally bumped into my soon-to-be-former Team Lead
at a cafeteria, having lunch with Patrick and Natalie.

Now I wanted to be alone. NOT to spend time with my fucking 'teammates' (except for Natalie)
who had gone out to lunch without inviting me.

Rebecca clearly has a crush on him, and invites him to all kinds of shit...
which I have nothing against.

But when you say things like 'So I'll see you after work, right?'
when I'm seated opposite him trying to work... it puts me in an awkward position.
Fucking inconsiderate bitch with manly features (trust me, she thinks she's hot)(but to me, she looks like a man).

So I was seated with the 3 of them for lunch,
and Natalie turns out to be pretty cool. I found her to be hilarious,
and yeah, she actually reminds me of an old friend of mine.

The only downside is that Natalie is a chick. Sadly, a cute one at that.
I have NEVER known someone like that to not have this kind of
shit attitude: 'He's talking to me. Yep. Clearly he wants me. Clearly. I am so hot.'


After lunch, I asked Rebecca for her Yahoo IM. I was hoping that maybe
she wouldn't get the wrong idea.
The next day, all I did was joke about how awesome lunch was.
She replied with 'Haha that's great.'
And then I continued working.

But what HAD to fucking happen?
I get Rebecca telling me to basically leave Natalie alone.
Like I was some kind of pervert. Yeah... CLEARLY I was harassing that stupid bitch.

Hey, ever heard of NOT replying? Fucking goddamn dumbass self-absorbed cunt bimbos.


The sooner I leave that shit-hole, the better.
I got less than 2 years left.
No sense in wasting time.